DEAR DECHEN
I am happy that you
have found someone you can trust and love enough to share your life with for
the adventure and growth of your life, I am confident that your love will last
and remain true honest forgiving and compassionate through everything life
throws your ways. Hearty congratulation for your new life
It may not matter you
much but I write to you with huge nostalgic feeling for what life has offered
to me. Question shots from every angle when I discovered that I have been
blocked, my conscious say’s I have been such a
disappointment to you.
You may not be the one
who always chat me fist, who ask how was my day, who always listen to every of
my problem, who takes me everywhere I desire, Who wait for me to return for a
tight hug, who will have patience over my tamper yet forgives me for all my
wrong doings. I just wanted you to be my better half who will be by my side at
high and lows.
I kept all my words
that I promised you today I am clean free from all the toxics and waiting for
you. Escaping nights without you and the mind
is running wild sometimes trying hard not to fall coz you told me that you are
done and said we are just a friend. My heart is broken up into pieces 'Cause I
know I'll never free my soul for loosing greatest human like you. I was trapped
between true loves and being alone when my eyes are closed the greatest dreams
and plans told and romance of how we would love each others were felt. When I
woke up all dreams are shattered and my heart is numb. Why there are fake
promises? can a human race stop to keep promises that can’t be kept when the
innocent falls victims.
What can keep the trust
grow stronger? When the person i trusted the most played with my mind and emotions
so much so that I won’t be able to repeat all the amazing things could happen henceforth
because I've been dealing with depression, my self-confidence is very low. Making
of my heart takes my physical as well as emotional and spiritual self it
engages my social and moral ethics it took moment by moment, breath by breath
to this physical sight as I am so is my heart.
With this broken heart I'll still be
around you to catch you when you fall and ever let you down You try to compliment
my feelings “you will get better than me” I felt like I was getting some of my
self-confidence back, I've tried to come up but it's
drowning me the hell is on my head. You'll never feel my soul as you are
leading a new life with a smarter, wealthier, Richer and learned man than me.
No matter how many
times I will say "I'm fine," something will always be missing
forever! Someday, somewhere i might through
another down falls yet none will be bitter than this. The real feeling is not
expressed but your action takes a permanent refuge and kept enclosed confidential
in my memory list. With the new day I
look forward to a new beginning and I will say that a better time awaits ahead.
Yours
Dorji
Yours
Dorji
From the thoughts of a
ordinary Bhutanese man.
